|Posted on July 14, 2014 at 1:15 PM|
I must admit, I am soooo DARNED proud of myself! I was soooo nervous about yesterday's SiZZle demo. Even with me taking some of the dance moves from R-rated to PG-13, it was hard to get up in front of a group of strangers and get my 'sexy' on. Okay my 'mild' sexy but sexy none the less. LOL!
To tell the truth, I was having second thoughts about performing at all. Tha' Mista' was supposed to go with me and then he got mandatory overtime and couldn't get off work. So, I had to call my sister, who had her day planned but changed her plans for me. When I arrived, I walked around for 20 minutes looking for the pavilion. When I FINALLY found it, I discovered that the area where I was supposed to perform was outside and NOT covered and since it was so hot as fish grease outside all the other instructors had canceled. So, it seemed I wasn't going to go on after all and to be honest a part of me was a little relieved.
As, I was leaving, I noticed that there were people doing fitness demos in an indoor tent and I got that little gnawing in the pit of my stomach. You know that feeling you get when you feel like you're punking-out. How could I walk away without even TRYING? I knew I HAD to try. So, I stopped for a moment, had a little chat with myself and gathered up my courage. I then decided to ask a total stranger if I could do a demo on their stage. And guess what? He said YES! I was actually the very last person to go on but I DID IT!
Lesson learned: When one door closes, sometimes you've got to put your big girl panties on, deal with your fears and kick another one open!